new post for new year. well nothing much to say. it’s just that i woke up damn early and had sooo much time to reflect on things.

few hours ago out of boredom i happed to browse some friends’ profile.. call it cheesiness but i tend to be happy for my friends’ being into a real relationship, and knowing their past and what they’ve been into compared of what they’re in right now i must say they must be really happy.

browse browse… not realizing i’m starting to envy some friends. nah.. don’t get me wrong okay. it’s just that i envy them coz they were so much loved without even lifting a finger. they don’t have to give their very best or to be the best so their significant other will love them. in short, they can be a badass or be the meanest person they can be coz there will be someone who can love them. they’re loved effortlessly, they just sit around and exist and that’s all they have to do.

it just made me realize my worth. WILL I BE LOVED WITHOUT DOING ANYTHING? NO EFFORTS AT ALL? CAN ANYONE LOVE ME EVEN WITHOUT LIFTING A FINGER?