sabi ko na nga ba next blog ko may work na ako. it’s been a week na hehe and where? sa Grand Central Station. Ayun Sales Associate ang lola haha… nakakapagod din kasi 8 hours akong nakatayo at naghahanger ng mga never ending na damit. pero ok narin naman at least di na ako mabobored

so ayun sad nanaman mundo ko kasi these past few days feeling ko napaka nonsense, useless and unproductive ko.

i just can’t find any job. i admit medyo mapili ako sa mga pinapasukan kong trabaho. dreaming big ba? hehe wa-ko-care! basta nagbabakasakali lang naman noh… bakit ba?

tapos yung pesteng cgfns na yan di parin sinasubmit yung papers ko sa NYSED. kaasar talaga! hmp! 8 months na mahigit yun e! dapat sana kahit LPN man lang nakapagwork na ako dito. pucha talaga, tapos mga buwiset pa yung mga customer service nila laging may false reassurance na sinasabi. nakukulitan na nga yata sakin e. pinagmumura ko nga sa email e, hehe biglang nagreply himala! just wait blah blah we’re processing it blah blah. punyeta silang lahat!

tapos tina-try kong idrive si red devil, as usual, naka-ilang beses namatay yung makina dahil di ako marunong, manual pa sya kaya lalong mas mahirap. may kotse ka nga ka nga di naman marunong magdrive, OLATS talaga!!! wag sana mabuko ni papa na may kotse ako kundi patay! tatanungin ako nun kung san ko nakuha yung kotse at san ako kumuha ng pambayad sa insurance. kaya inaabangan ko yung car title na isesend sakin via mail araw araw, mahirap na baka mabasa ni papa.

wala naman ako magawa kundi iiyak nalang ang lahat, damn it! depress depressan kumbaga. tang ina nalulungkot nanaman ako dito.. kaya parati akong nasa labas e. i hate staying home dahil malululong nanaman ako sa on-line shopping, paubos na pera ko sa banko.

sana next blog ko may work na ako.

It has been a very exhausting day for me. It’s been years (year and a half probably) since I felt upset, doomed, tired and hopeless all at the same time, defense namin noon when I felt this way.

I woke up very determined, and although unprepared for my job interview, I know I can “nail” it because I’ve been into a lot of like this before.

“What can you bring in this company?”

“Why do you want to work here?”

“What are your skills/ abilities that will make us hire you”

I KNEW IT! Those questions were not new, actually I answered it all confidently with matching American twang and raised eyebrows.

Unfortunately, those were not enough. They need NYC SALES EXPERIENCE which they didn’t saw in my resume.

I shouldn’t feel bitter about it coz at least I made it through the top 10 out of the 60+ applicants… BUT STILL I’M NOT HIRED! Gawddamnit!

You suck ARMANI… you suck!

If I’m gonna get a nice paying job this month, I’ll make it sure that I’m gonna spend every penny of my fat paycheck in your store and I’m gonna make sure that I’ll be a pain in your ass as a CUSTOMER!

i’m tired and i want to try a vanilla flavored hookah. and apple and melon and chai flavors too.

to my special someone: i’m sorry for being frank and for the drastic changes, really. i won’t elaborate anymore. i’m tired.

haaay lots of probs this week. i need a job so i can pay my car insurance this 22nd. DAMN IT! i also need to work coz i hate staying home. and also i need to bring my car in to the auto shop for check up. damn i’m broke! and my CGFNS, still stagnant. punyetah!!! i should’ve been  working and earning lotsa moohla as an RN but that CGFNS sucks!!! they’re holding my papers goddamnit!!

i’m giving myself till june, if there’s no improvement on my CGFNS, i will study again, maybe as a phlebotomist or a medical biller, so i could save my ass from being broke and being a palamunin here in this house.

got a job sana yesterday as a reservationist, but it requires wearing formal clothes so i decided not to go back for training. not to mention the anime looking manager who keeps on looking my boobs, the fact that i’m almost flatchested… weird.