Naisip ko tong post na ito dahil NAIINIS AKO!

1. For those Ex Bfs of mine wo still bugging me.. damn! you’re a fuckin’ friggin’ HOE! i’m livin a QUIET LIFE now so puhlease!!!

note: if cant resist visiting my profile now and then and commenting about the color of my eyes, well just pls shut up… the color of my eyes are PURPLE now.

2. For that friend (friends? me and her? she just think so) who still flaunting/ enumerating the items she bought last week or last month blah blah well good for you! Are you so envious? I know you’re just boosting your self esteem but "friend" let me tell you…. i’m way too far! Good luck!

3. For the current GF of my EX… let me tell you this! HE’S ALL YOURS! I HAVE A LIFE NOW AND DON’T BOTHER ME IF YOU DON’T HAVE ONE… WHY DON’T YOU WATCH LIFESTYLE NETWORK… THERE’S A LOT TO CHOOSE FROM! CAN I SUGGEST ONE? UHMMM, BRINI MAXWELL SHOW IS OKAY.. hehe bagay syo

4. For those ones flooding the friendster bulletin board! HELL! no one is stopping you from posting but don’t flood u idiot!

Uh oh… WARNING: this is a sad post.

You’ve known me quite a long time guys and for sure in away i’ve been a pain in our ass. haha! nah.. really..

(Seriously) These past few weeks i’ve been thinking a lot about my departure, i guess it will be hard (very hard) for me coz i’m quite unprepared for this and i will miss for sure lots of things (and persons). My life just started last year, for last 2003 i died. I just begun building what they called LIFE and now i guess i’m gonna need to start all over again… without mom, without friends, without jefree. My dad and Rico Bear are all i have.

Lately i often have teary eyes and sleepless nights, yeah right, i’m just overreacting about leaving but it’s for real. My head is clouded with the thoughts of what will happen next. What i’m feeling right now is obscure. You’ve known me as an UNEMOTIONAL NUMB BIATCH but mind you there are countless of tears i already shed. *Sigh*

i really hate good-byes coz i always find myself turning back (quoted from allergictoyou)

*** but now… there’s no turning back, there’s no other way but to head straight, 19 days and still counting…

xxxxxxxxxxxxxx what’s the good in goodbyes xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

WHOA! nice one lester! hehe… so does it mean that i now belong to D&G models na? hahaha… Ayoko nga mas masarap maging freelancer! hahaha

Nyeta! walang kokontra! hehe akin naman tong blog e di ba? blah blah blah…

eto some infos about me (honestly, walang stirrrr!!! )

*** kathy na yung twag nila sakin ngyon, well unlike dati surname ko ang nickname ko (chan) nung highschool, mas madali nga namang tandaan… oh well okay lng naman sana pero pa-girl na ko ngayon e hehe

***** happy-go-lucky ako.. since birth! haha i dunno, maybe i’m not that kind of person that’s too serious, too complicated and too harsh in life. i believe in Que-sera-sera (tama ba spell ko) whatever will be will be! haha baliw! oo baliw na kung baliw pero i’m livin’ that way. And it does’t mean na happy-go-lucky ay walang nararating… MALI!!! why?

here are some reasons:

1. I passed the board exams without reviewing so hard. (but thank GOD He gave me the ability to listen) Minsan nga ang aga aga kong natutulog tpos gigising ako ng tangali na ehehe  talking about being late in class (and also sa review classes). Coz for me it’s bullshit to push yourself on things u didnt want, like studying TOO HARD. Oh yes i did study, i admit i crammed but reading/ memorizing stuff? Nah… uhhhhm, i’m not bragging or anything blah blah but my point is being that hard to yourself wont do any good.

2. I finished college, highschool and elementary on time… tuloy tuloy.. walang delay. it wasnt easy, i know, i didnt say that i didnt study at all, but actually i study during exams hehe like 30 minutes before the scheduled exams.. haha CRAM!!! i dunno.. im just good with that..

xxxx tama na, ang yabang ko na e xxxx

******* ano pa ba about me.. i easily get depressed. depression really.. like when i feel gloomy (okay okay heartbroken, gloomy kpa jan e) i kinda feel that my world is not revolving. A-WHAT!?! ano yun? eto other meaning: parang hindi umiikot ang mundo ko kpag heartbroken ako. well, being heartbroken is the only way for me to get depressed (and also financially broken, uhmm kinda..) Ewan ko ba.. lecheng mga lalaki yan o.. lagi akong pinapaiyak e. OO UMIIYAK DIN AKO NOH!!! akala nyo lang hindi pero OO!! OO!!! weakest spot ko kz pagdating jan sa mga love love na yan e.. i easily get hurt, i easily fall in love kasi e, kaya ayun. plak! semplang nanaman ako, (ahem buti may sumalo na sakin nagyon at last! Jef ikaw ba yun? hehe)

******** Wala akong talent. MY GAWD! SHOCKS!!! Gulat kyo noh? sbi kasi nila walang taong di nagkakaroon ng talent. E BAKIT AKO WALA. as in wala tlaga! mapa- music, sports, education, fashion, love, arts, electronics… name any topic wala akong expertise… nursing? pwede pero di ko kz hilig e… 20 years of my existence, nabuhay akong walang talent so i guess, pwede akong mabuhay ng mga 50 -60 years na walang talent. (kung sino man ang may nakakakilala sakin at alam ang talent ko… just message me okay?)

********** once a day lang ako maligo, twice a day lang ako magtoothbrush ENUF SAID..

********** On being an only child, siguro ako na yta ang pinaka hindi spoiled na only child dito sa mundo, why? kasi naman di ako lumaki sa luho di gaya ng mga iba jan na sobra magtantrums kpag di napagbigyan ang gusto, oo lumaki akong may katulong sa tabi ko at di alam ang mga household chores pero lahat ng meron ako ngayon ay pinaghirapan ko po muna bago ako nagkaroon nito like bago ako magkaroon ng raise sa allowance kailangan ko munang maging top ten noong elementary at highschool (kaya walang raise ang allowance ko nung 2nd,3rd at 4th year highschool ako)

********** Ang favorite kong food ay corned beef kahit araw araw kong kainin pwede sakin. walang kasawaan sa corned beef, any brand, kahit local o imported okay sakin

********** Ngayong 20 years old nko, feeling ko parin 15 ako hehe, isip bata ako minsan, really!! kahit na yung ibang friends ko akala napaka matured kong mag- isip (isip lang yun noh) pero feeling ko tlaga di pko 20.. haaayy malapit na mga BER months malapit na birthday ko 21 nko…

********** My favorite expression kpag nagsusulat/nagtetext ako ay  Hehehe… yuuuuu!!!

********** ANG MGA AYAW KONG TAO

1. ayoko sa mga taong ubod ng yabang, kahit na keychain o notebook na binili nya ay pinagmamayabang niya sa mga tao.. CARE NAMIN NOH?? Care ko ba kung 199 pesos yang keychain mo o kaya tig- 50 pesos yung notebook mo noong hghscool.. sana lang kung off topic or di ka tinanong about dun sa mga stuffs kung magkano ang bili mo sana lang wag mo nang sabihin ang presyo! DUH! nakaka-irita!

2. Yung mga nangangareer jan! FEELING GWAPO LOOKING GAGO naman! kasama narin yung mga lalaki (mga tanders a.k.a. D.O.M. at tibo) na kung tumingin syo e para kang hinuhubaran! sbi nung iba, i should take it as a compliment pero di ko ma- take!!! pooon-nye-tah!

3. mga chismoso / chismosa (ahem dun sa mga classmate kong pinagchichimisang buntis daw ako) mga balahura kayo!

4. mga nagmamalinis… akala mo mga walang alam sa sex, pa- virgin effect kuno! as if virgin pa! Leche! mind ur own business! walang pakialamanan!

5. Mga taong feeling smart! yikes! how i wish ganyan din ang confidence ko gaya sa inyo… as in SOBRANG CONFIDENT SYA NA SMART NGA SYA.. feeling matalino pero minsan walang common sense duh!!!

6. MGA TOXIC NA TAO… yung mga taong grabeng mataranta o kaya mamroblema sa mga sitwasyon na di naman dpat problemahin… buti sana kung sila lang ang namomroblema nun, e yung mga taong toxic nandadamay pa ng iba! lakas ng magnetic force nila ha!

teka, antok nko e, update ko nalang itong post ko nxt tym

to be continued…

oh well final na yung flight ko. i’m leavin’ philippines via PAL (boeing 747) this Aug. 16 just right after my oathtaking ceremony sa Araneta Colliseum. I just hope that life would be fine in New York. Haaaaay tis is it. I’m leaving, I’m still in denial but gotta accept it. Sana mahintay parin ako ni Jef

What is a Nurse? (Really)
A Nurse is many things, she’s
Sympathy with hope in her eyes,
Knowledge with tomorrow in her hands,
Love with her fingers on the pulse of life.
A Nurse is a cool hand in a fevered
world. She’s Kindness in the dark of a
lonely night. She is a Diplomat with a
pill in her hand, a Philosopher holding a
hot water bottle, an Ambassador
pushing a wheel chair. She has learned
long ago to cry inside, and never let it
show. She’s an Optimist with a
cheery "Good Morning". She’s hope with
a friendly "Good Night." Men fall in love
with her, women envy her usefulness,
and little girls dream of growing up and
being just like her. Her kindness makes
the world go around, Her warm smile
can fill a cold room. She’s a princess of
hope, a queen of dreams. The world is
her ward. She is a member of the
world’s most humane sorority, She’s
America’s most cherished citizen (also UK, KSA, NZ, Canada hehe) A
woman in white, with God in her hands.
She’s a NURSE!

eto si queenie… our new black- tan dachshund. may mate na si poochie boy ko hehe… at sana di na mangulit si poochie dahil may girlfriend na sya wala lang masaya lang mag alaga ng mga asong hotdog

  I’ve watched this film for about 6 times already including the tagalog version by GMA 7. This is my ultimate fave movie ever! Luckily, i found a vcd copy of this film (not pirated huh!) @ SM NorthEDSA for only 100 pesos, oh well, really a lucky day for me since I’ve been searching a copy a loooong time already. I love this film, though it’s not a chic- type movie, i find it classic and heart warming. Let me quote a fave line of mine:

Jenny Curran: His name’s Forrest.
Forrest Gump: Like me.
Jenny Curran: I named him after his daddy.
Forrest Gump: He got a daddy named Forrest, too?
Jenny Curran: You’re his daddy, Forrest.

… i think it was the happiest moment of Forrest, the day he knew that Little Forrest do exists! Ayyyy… kakatouch

and the movie ends with:

[Forrest is waiting with Forrest Jr. for the school bus on little Forrest's first day of school in Greenbow. The bus arrives and little Forrest is about to board it]
Forrest Gump: Forrest, don’t…
[pause, then]
Forrest Gump: I just wanted to tell you I love you.
Forrest Gump Jr.: I love you too, Daddy.

Forrest Gump Jr.: (to the school bus driver) Hi! I’m Forrest, Forrest Gump.

Enough reason to make me smile today

Im just happy today!!! wala lang… upon waking up, wala lang masaya lng ako maybe bcoz madami ako ginawa today…

our puppy waked me up kasi, he always wakes me up kasi sa floor ako natutulog e, he bites me para magising ako hahaha, enough reason to wake up happily then we play and play and play until he gets tired, tapos breakfast with my fave milk, took a bath, went to market with mom and buy some stuffs there haha… i dunno, im just happy enuf said

im also clutter- happy hehe just look at d pic.. see? that’s my cluttered room… actually im wearing a belt not  headband haha!

here’s the pic of pucci nga pala (pronounced as POOCHIE )

what a hearty day yesterday… had lunch @ ingrid’s house with lester, dadi jef, jeme and jay. get together nanaman kami ang saya then we went to gateway to cool off, nah.. actually to see herbie hehe but we seemed tamad na so we headed to our house para sa dinner. D@mn! lumakas ulan.. e sa rooftop pa naman yung venue.. haaayy… di tuloy me nakapag videoke.. But i can say that day was sooo fine kasi get together nanaman kaming triplets and of course present ang dadi jef jef hehe minsan lng mangyari yun e… he’s kinda shy socializing kasi hehe well eto yung isa sa marami naming pics

here i go again feeling empty. this is the nth tym already my gawd! actually this blog entry is nonsense… haaaaaaaaayyy… kelangan ko nanaman ba ng PROZAC?  d@mn! Sh1t!

I SHOULD GET A LIFE!!!

hmmm where will i start?